Exhausting to have to help carry a burden.
Exhausting to have to help carry a burden.
I just want to feel appreciated. I want to feel loved.
“I don’t care, just take care of him. You take care of him. He needs someone, you or another.”
Titane dir. Julia Ducournau (2021)
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004)
dir. Michel Gondry
It’s been hot as balls in LA these past couple of days. I cannot wait for this heatwave to subside. We don’t have AC on our side of the house and it doesn’t help that it’s on the south side so the sun has just beaming down on me all fucking day. I don’t do well in the heat. I swear I get heat exhaustion every time. We have to move out of our apartment by the end of November.. happy birthday to me. I can already feel the stress of it. Not to mention October being crazy hectic as is. I just pray that Mars and I find a decent apartment we both love, that has parking and with a small commute for both of us. It sucks because since we’ve been scoping stuff out the last couple months we have lucked out on some nice places. But hey, I believe everything happens for a reason and things will work themselves out as they’re supposed to. They have to. Same goes for that job at Searchlight I was supposed to get. Having past 3 rounds of intense nerve wracking interviews and ready to sign the offer letter.. just having the floor swept up from under me. “Hiring freeze” its been happening to a lot of folks that I know. The times are weird right now. I don’t know. I have hope they’ll call me by the end of the year like they say “Hey, remember us? We’re ready for you to onboard”. Damn I wish. I was offered a great position at a smaller boutique place but they mainly work in just commercials. Hell, I’d rather stay in episodic television. The goal is to just work on films. Anyway.. rambling again. That’s all for now.
It’s funny that we all just stopped logging into tumblr.
everythingeverywhereallatonce:
Siobhán Hapaska, Robot, 2001 // Pang Maokun, Destiny 命运; Hand in Hand 牵手, 2019 // Shorra, Death of a Cyborg (after The First Mourning by William-Adolphe Bouguereau), 2015
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